you wanna know ... ok.... - did I say it out loud?

Now...
Yet, oddly enough, right now, you want to know how I feel?!
Ok, let me tell you how I feel...
It's like having a toothache. I don't like dentists, I know that it will hurt whenever I go there so I try to do all the other things which can be a solution to my pain.
Untill...
 untill I can't come up with new ways to try. And the pain still lingers, even gets worse...
That's why right now, I feel like I want to give up because I know that, eventhough dentist will cause a pain, that pain can't be bigger than the pain I am in right now. And even if it is, I know that it will not last too long because the solution that the dentist gives me the best, it'll take away the whole pain eventually.
However, I don't have a toothache but a pain bothers me as it is. I really, really want to give up and get rid of it  cause it is unbeareable... but I don't know where I can find my solution.
Obviously,neither a dentist nor you can be my answer .....
but who?!


Now....
You know how I feel, is that make any difference?



I thought so...


C_lifepattern